Fallen Angel

This is so difficult to write this right now. Today is March 3, 2017. On December 31st I made an incredible declaration that the new year beginning on the 1st of January, my life would be substantially different for the better. I was so incredibly hopeful and excited to have a great year. Unfortunately, I have run into so many obstacles and dead ends so far this year. The first two months of this year have just sucked so bad. I am not in good health mentally, physically, and most importantly spiritually. I've been hospitalized twice in the previous 3 months. Living with serious depression and debilitating chronic pain  would ruin anyone's life. I truly feel if anyone tried walking a day in my shoes it would kill them. Maybe God knows how strong I am and has faith in me that I can handle just about anything.I really don't feel like I am strong at this point in my life. Eventually there comes a point in my sad little life where I need to remember to breathe in and exhale. Right now breathing in and out is a treacherous chore. Sorry to say that I am so messed up in my head right now and I cant figure a way out. So I am calling out to my angels who watch over me to help me get through this painful time in my life. I have a few angels, but if you let me borrow yours until my life turns around into a healthy place I promise that I will give it back to you. The more angels watching over me the better. So here's my SOS "I'm crying out to all my friends, my family, and all those anonymous generous souls out there to send me your angels until I get back on my feet again.